Friends, after a few months of being back to work since having Tara in October, I have made the decision to be a stay-at-home-mommy. I am excited for this new transition to be at home with little T and to be a ‘home-maker’, but I am also terrified. I’m 37 years old, and all I have ever known is work. I don’t know HOW to be a home-maker! I’m looking forward to perfectly ordinary days with Tara – feeding her, getting her to sleep, reading and singing to her, and just watching this beautiful child grow up. But as excited as I am for this new stage in my life, I am also full of worry. All I have ever known is a schedule. I have lived by a work schedule since I was 14. When I am not on a schedule, I fall into days of not getting ready until 5 pm and feeling not so good, eating a LOT, feeling like a lazy bum, etc. etc. In saying this, I also have moments where I can’t wait to exercise and lose the baby weight, read a book when baby is sleeping, organize my house, eat better, spend occasional lunches with Dave at Chick-fil-A (note: he eats there EVERY DAY with baby in tow), read the scriptures, experiment more with cooking and baking, serving friends and family, get myself ready to get pregnant again, etc, etc. I just want to make sure I keep that momentum!
In leaving my work years behind, I will mourn the many adventures I have had traveling the world on the company’s dime, the amazing friendships made within the office and out, and the feeling of goals made and met. I will miss it, but I do so look forward to this new chapter in my life.
I gave my ‘notice’ last month, and will have my last day as soon as someone else replaces me. Soon enough, soon enough J