Friends, after a few months of being back to work since
having Tara in October, I have made the decision to be a
stay-at-home-mommy. I am excited for
this new transition to be at home with little T and to be a ‘home-maker’, but I
am also terrified. I’m 37 years old, and
all I have ever known is work. I don’t
know HOW to be a home-maker! I’m looking forward to perfectly ordinary days
with Tara – feeding her, getting her to sleep, reading and singing to her, and
just watching this beautiful child grow up.
But as excited as I am for this new stage in my life, I am also full of
worry. All I have ever known is a
schedule. I have lived by a work schedule
since I was 14. When I am not on a
schedule, I fall into days of not getting ready until 5 pm and feeling not so
good, eating a LOT, feeling like a lazy bum, etc. etc. In saying this, I also have moments where I
can’t wait to exercise and lose the baby weight, read a book when baby is
sleeping, organize my house, eat better, spend occasional lunches with Dave at
Chick-fil-A (note: he eats there EVERY DAY with baby in tow), read the
scriptures, experiment more with cooking and baking, serving friends and
family, get myself ready to get pregnant again, etc, etc. I just want to make sure I keep that
momentum!
In leaving my work years behind, I will mourn the many
adventures I have had traveling the world on the company’s dime, the amazing
friendships made within the office and out, and the feeling of goals made and
met. I will miss it, but I do so look
forward to this new chapter in my life.
I gave my ‘notice’ last month, and will have my last day as
soon as someone else replaces me. Soon
enough, soon enough J
