I am an Aquarian. I don't always know what that means, but nonetheless, I find it very interesting. My life isn't guided by my sign, but horoscopes do tend to amuse me. Each day I receive a new horoscope by email. I don't always read it, but when I have a moment I’ll peruse over the specifics of the horoscope and see how it fits into my life. It usually doesn’t fit, but today it went a little something like this...
Your freedom is more important to you than anything else in your life. It is often very difficult for you to get involved, whether personally or professionally. Nevertheless Erin, today you may have to think about it. Could it be that your thirst for freedom is just an escape? You may feel it necessary to think about this question today. Who knows? You may just decide to take the leap!
I thought it interesting that it brought up my freedom. I've been thinking about that a bit lately. I often feel the need to get out and spread my wings, which is usually in the form of travel. Travel is a definite escape for me. But beyond this one thing, I have thought about my many “quirks”. Some of my closer friends know this about me more than others. So, let’s begin this.
I have issues answering the phone. My brother-in-law Ryan pointed this out to me the other day when he tried calling. I wasn’t avoiding his call – since it was on quiet. Anyhow, when I called him back a few minutes after realizing I missed the call, he said “are you so controlling that you can’t answer the phone, and have to call me back on your own time?” He was laughing about it of course, but it got me thinking. Now, I’ve known that I’ve had a “fear” of the phone for many years. Yet, the one thing I love about having my own cell phone is that I don’t have to answer it until I want to. I can let voice mail get it, and surely if that person wanted to talk to me badly enough, they’d leave a message. Isn’t it the greatest thing?! But yet I get crap about it all the time! Usually when family calls I don’t mind picking up, because I can say “Hello, what’s up? You need me to do such-and-such, or blah, blah… ok, bye”. And it’s done. There is no pretense to it. I don’t even feel bad cutting the conversation short if I’m busy, and they don’t care either. They are perfectly fine with it. On the other hand…
I have great friends; lots of great friends. The friends that know me best (bless their patient hearts) know that if they call me, I usually won’t pick up. This isn’t because I’m trying to avoid a call or don’t want to talk to them. The reason I do this is because I want to find the time to have a long conversation without interruption. For obvious reasons, I wouldn’t be able to chat it up while I’m at work. I don’t like chatting about personal things in the store, or anywhere else for that matter. The “safe” chatting zone is in my car or in my room. Do you get me? Yeah, quirky I know, but true.
So, maybe it’s not all about freedom, but more about control, eh? Hmm…In short, I cherish my freedom. I will probably change when change is required, but for now, I think I’m going to hang on to my freedom. Oh, and a good thing to know, I’m GREAT at texting!
How does any of this have to do with being an Aquarius? No real clue, actually. It could be that Aquarians are generally those that are constantly looking to spread their wings, and experience difficulty settling down. What does that have to do with fear of the phone? Oh, I don't know. It's just a blog, people!